What does it mean to be a kid at heart?

So yeah, I took a break from writing and some thing I did once used to engage cause’ I felt really down and was battling with some stuff. Still am, but it is evaporating slowly. I feel quite lightweight and, calm as the day goes and the sun goes leaving dusk.

Overall, i’ve been so waylaid by different emotions wandering in my heart. I feel too heavy and, my thoughts are stuttering like a broken radio wave. 

Adulthood and teen experience have made me overstimulated that once every week, it’s either I feel sad, happy, or anything short of my child-like self.

I feel like I had lost that inner child I did once had. That heart of a kid whose worries were never his top priority; he was always excited every morning when the sun set, elated when he got a new toy, joyful when he meets new friends, not scared anyone would break his heart.

A kid with nothing but happiness at every sight of anything he comes across. A kid at heart who had upheld honesty not optionally but, to everything he did meet.

Who believed kindness required reciprocation, where kindness didn’t feel like a stranger. Where every good quality he did showed were out of love and, indeed received love not hatred.

Not nonchalancy. A kid at heart who took on his shoulder to care about people, look out for his loved ones and his friends, was a free giver and all these qualities didn’t feel too much to carry.

Not too heavy. Not too tough to show to put to people. A kid at heart is one who sleeps at night with nothing scary to dream about but, sweet dreams. Whose thoughts and acts aimed to bring others together in love and unity.

Whom hate felt like a stranger to. Whom wickedness, heartbreaks, sadness, depression felt like aliens.

A kid with nothing but sheer knowledge that when his friends or strangers needed help, he offered. Being a kid at heart is having to cherish everything even the littlest things. Make everyone little acts feel special and never downgrade their actions.

Being a kid at heart means motivating others even when they believe nothing will work out. A kid at heart who gives hearing ears to his friends and every little, funny and boring jokes.

Being a kid at heart requires keeping a smiley face even back at strangers. And, dropping all forms of pessimistic energy.

~Ace